maybe there are just people who thrive with routines. and i guess i’m not one of them. i embrace change not necessarily with open arms, but rather with an accepting and hopeful heart.

i cannot always hope for life to give me sunny days and the summer sky. what it can offer me though are three more seasons to enjoy, to suffer, to cry out, to be angry, to love. to get out of the routines i could be unconsciously and maybe for some gladly trapped in, even just for a month, a day, an hour, a minute.

i’ll never get to know what i’ll find if, just for one day, i decided to take the road less taken or choosing a random place to eat lunch rather than the usual spot beneath some tall tree. that frequently traveled road will always be there and so will be that tree that houses my usual lunch spot.

sure they’ll miss me (if ever they are capable of feeling that is) and pretty much the other way around, but, i tell you what, one thing i am pretty much sure of routines is that i can always go back to them.

it may seem awkward and hard at first. it will be as if starting from scratch yet again but if it’s worth it, it’s worth it! everything will eventually fall right into their respective places. besides, when you badly want something, all the universe conspires for you to achieve it.

changes are inevitable as routines are predictable. they come and they go. for what it’s worth, change is a routine in itself. a routine that i can bring myself to follow…and stop from anytime i would want to and need to.

and just like any other routine out there, one i could go back to with hesitant steps but a firm and yet again a hopeful heart.

~sai